Very Small Feet

I guess today being 1st of January it seems appropriate to reflect on the year that passed.  It was definitely unique, with its extra stress and worries, thank you history for repeating yourself with pandemic but not influenza but much scarier covid. Well thinking of it I m sure the 1920 pandemic was just as scary.  We finally spend time together. And a lot of time and sometimes it was hard. But I actually really enjoyed that.  And turns out walking is nice gentle exercise for mind and the legs and does wonders for wee man!  I rediscovered my love for sewing and that I definitely hurry the process and well not very attentive to details. Actually looking forward to expand on that and making more things for the house and for myself, and well more face coverings.  I also finally started to read again and not just children books!! I made a little list.  I reassessed my drinking habit and well my general well being. Turns out pregnancy impacts very differently o...

Here is a photo of my cat with her tongue out.  Wales is in lockdown 2.0 and well I feel all the feelings. We are lucky that hubby is on furlough, that schools will reopen after half term for us, so little one will not miss it! But it still is scary. We don’t know if it will last as long as 2 weeks or will it be more.  I guess it’s ok to feel uncertain and scared sometimes. At least in spring summer lockdown it was nice weather and lots of vitamin D that does affect the mood.  Also I am in 3rd trimester of pregnancy and it’s also not clear. If hubby can come. When will he be able to come with me. Will I have to be alone? Or who would watch the big boy?  And all this silliness with only essential items in supermarkets. I get that it’s fairer I guess but what about people who don’t have access to internet to order a book or new duvet?  Oh you get it. It’s strange and scary but we are going to be ok right? So let’s just be nice to each other, wash hands, stay 2 met...

A while back, not too long ago, my hubby decided to start calorie counting and to loose some weight.  And he is doing great! I, on the other hand, never actually did any diets. I am a believer everything is good in moderation...  but he got to me. Always talking about the food and dropping pounds super easy, or he makes it look like this. And I wanted some of that! But not skinny cheese... cheese should be tasty and fatty! We all are different and of course what suits him won’t do for me. But here is what happened. I have been using my fitness pal app to help keep track of things for about a week now. And I am staying on the target calorie intake which is pretty low but because I am rather active I get extra calories.  Cooking is now a little more time consuming I need to measure stuff up and such. Think because it isn’t happening as quickly little one gets bit hungier for his dinner.  If I find it rather calming to weigh things and enter them in the app. But at the ...

Some one told me that apparently the Russians were taught how to smile for the football world cup.... but then when I met some of the higher management of the company I work for I was told I am the smiliest person they have met. I am currently a waitress... so you get the irony, Russians allegedly learning to smile not at their friends and family, but I have been hailed the smiliest person. And when I was in Switzerland, while my Russian friends were happy to hang with each other and have Russian food parties (which actually were pretty fun, I have never craved Russian food), I would wonder off to my Asian classmates or with Brits in the pub. So one my mates once told me that I was a different Russian.  When living abroad most people look for familiar language, food and such. I guess it’s a comfort thing. But, you know I am ok without it. I don’t have any Russian speaking friends, well yeah my doctor is from Russia but we don’t hang socially. And sometimes I don’t get my mothers jo...

I never smoked. Well I have tired when I was 18 I think but it really wasn’t something that I liked. Smelly, horrible flavour and then everything smells...  But I never had this trouble with drink.  It is fun, nice and relaxing to have a glass of wine or three after work.  To be perfectly honest it was more like a bottle of wine a day. Not great. So after my mum flew home I have decided to cut down and be more mindful about my wine consumption. Wine is my drug of choice. Well I love gin too....  I always thought that I drink because I am bored. And well this is actually true, it’s easy to sit down in front of tv show and chill with some wine... and not so much since you are chilled with wine.  So I stopped buying wine and start getting fizzy mineral water instead. Oh I love these bubbles. And you know it was strange the 1st day and now it is just magical. I maybe have a bottle of wine over couple of days but I chose a these days.  I became more productive. ...

My hubby is a chef and I myself have been working in the industry for years so when some one says you might have to work the bank holidays, I don't even blink. I am used to it.  However it feels a bit different now...  Now that my job is being at home rearing a child.  This Sunday just gone it was the Mother's Day in U.K. It's a nice holiday I guess... all the family getting together to celebrate these important women.  It is also a very busy day at restaurants ... just like St Valentine's Day! It became overcrowded and commercial. I don't need this public displays of affection... also what is it like for people with no one to share these holidays with. But maybe I just being a grouch!  However... this happened:  I got this strange feeling that my two year old didn't out enough effort in... I don't know just felt down seeing all he families together enjoying the rare sunny day here in Wales.  But he made me a card... well nursery staff made me a card. ...

Have you seen La La Land? Well if you haven't you must have heard of it. And you heard all of that Oscar mishap and about the backlash against this wonderful picture.  In my opinion some films have an important message or important sorry to tell like say Hidden Figures, and others tell a great sorry but without a deep meaning. And I think the La La was hat film. I mean it was about not giving up and have integrity but mainly it was about relationship of Mia and Sebastian.    I think I didn't get warm fuzzing feelings about this movie due to crazy expectations I got after all the praise is the media...  But then I have started listening to soundtrack... like all the time! It is glorious! Uplifting and makes me think happy thoughts. We even had a little dance off my with little one to Another Day Of Sun... So basically I realised that I really enjoyed the film. Even if I didn't realise this straight away! It stays with you I guess...