Very Small Feet

Ever since I have discovered I can run I was doing races pretty much every summer. Exception was when we have moved away from Cardiff but even then I still did Surivial of the Fittest in 2013 and Birmingham half the same year.  Admittedly since Edgar came into our lives I exercise less even ... not at all... I still managed few races and even got the dream time of 10k in 58min.  Yeah it's a great time for some one who doesn't really take running seriously!  But this year I felt the pressure to go running. The pressure to do the races. And I didn't feel happy about it. So I maybe run once this year by my self and once with the club. But as for races... I am taking a year off.  I wouldn't say I am out of shape. We still walk a lot. Thank you Fitbit for keeping me on track. But races are complicated. I need to sign up on time and with enough time to train. Also I want to do as many as I can and can afford. Yes these things cost money. Not much but it all adds up. Also u...

Mama's life is hard and it's very hard to find quiet time. I miss just sitting down and maybe crafting or just chilling, or having friends over or just a bath...  Now with Big Guy all these things need to planning ahead. Yes I have to plan time in the bath. It's this intense. But I do get some quiet time every so often, when Edgar naps... I listen to podcast. Yes my regular favourites like Kermode and Mayo, No Such Thing as the Fish, Answer me this and Scummy Mummies.  But I have discovered the new ones recently and I want you to have a have a listen to... so here it goes. The Guity Feminist  They explore out noble goals in achieving equality for all while being super funny and yet super unsightful. This week they were talking about raising feminist boys which is a topic close to my heart. And if only I could get my hubby to give a go too...  Then the creator of GF created Global Pillage. I always laught out loud to the silliness and enginiousnes of the comedians at ...

So I fly alone today. Men folk are in the pool.  I took my self for a coffee shop lunch.    As I was browsing the sandwiches and what nots there is a Big Bang and tray on the floor with some coffee escaping everywhere. And one very embraced lady trying to give a quick tidy...  so this got me thinking. Not only about the terrible staff that they didn't stop her and told her that's ok and to chill, but also why do we get so embarrassed and worked up about not being perfect. What is perfect really? It is nice to strive for better and improvement, but why do we get so worked up.  That lady told me it was her mumming instinct to tidy straight after... but why do we feel the need to make sure to be perfect and not be judged by others.  So once again I just wish that everyone would be kinder and try not to judge each other.  We all, well a majority of us, wants to be better than we are. But if and when we have these little failed moments wouldn't be just nice...