Saturday, 1 October 2016

Now only my hair doesn't hurt

In 2013 I completed my 1st ever hard obstical race, Survival of the Fittest. I had a blast. 
And then this Sunday I did it again. With my friend Nora who in 2013 fell down next to me at the race and broke her leg. It was super hard for her to do this, mentally mainly. 
But we did it together. We supported each other when it was needed mostly. She couldn't quiet get over one climby thingy I talked her throw it and when I was about to lie down on the floor and have a cry since 10k run turned out to be 12k run, she cheered me on and made me run. 

I had a cold all week long prior to run. This is never good actually, anyone who ever run or did something physical. Last time I run after the cold it was when I wingged my way throw Birmingham half.
The height of the stacks of bale scared me too. But I did them purely on will power, I can't jump high.  

I enjoyed the event. Mainly because I had Nora with me to cheer me on and such. When I hit the about to lay down and cry with exhaustion after discovering the 12k mark... and that I didn't eat nearly enough. She cheered me on and push me on. I shall not say how quickly I rammaged throw the goodie bag in search of food and how quickly that Track bar saw its end... 

(here is big guy loving my headband)

The event seemed more commercial since I did it. The Renault cars on the final obstical, when in 2013 the final thing was the wall and a small pool and it was epic... Some of the obsticals seemed odd and poor for such organisation as Men's Health. I mean I love the big slide (well I didn't) or space hoppers that have been deflated by the previous waves of runners... And the runner village seemed to clean and tidy. It didn't feel right. I loved having a pint in wet trainers and this time I didn't even spotted the bar tent till we left. When we got to the boldering like walls and I have asked the chap who was minding it whether all the sides were good to go, after he said yes, trust me to get on to the one that was broken. And he has a maintenance guy right after me. Was it because I am a woman he didn't bother to tell me that? 
And goodie bad was bad. Like really bad. 4 things. Dove deodorant, shampoo, track bar, bag of popcorn and of course a magazine. And dudes are charging £55 for early bird entry. I know it is pricey to organize and such but some on. 
Well I guess the negatives just popped out here. But I guess things change and they relay of volunteers... I just wish standards didn't change. 
All that said I will be doing it next year. It is still mainly super challenging. And I really want to do that jump I didn't do... 
So I want to wish that few of these pointers can be addressed. 

However real heroes of the day are the people who cheered and watched and helped! From me big love goes to Rhian who took these photos and stayed all the 2.13 that I run and my mother in law dearest and Lau who were on Egg watch that day! 

Friday, 23 September 2016

Job hunting. Stepping away from hospitality

As you know I have been looking for a job... I had few phone interviews and few in person. One of them actually went really well but the shifts patterns isn't fitting in with child care. And is what the trouble is.
Child care is also expensive and I pretty much will be working for nursery but that's ok. Edgar will have more of social life with other kids and it would be nice for me to get out of the house and actually speak to grown ups. Even if I am totally shitting myself about how Egg will cope, how I would cope. I am most definitely not doing it for money I am doing it for sanity.
Also I have only worked in hospitality industry and not many people seem to get that hotel reception is like super extensive admin experience and managing... like of everything. Every employers but the employment agencies. Well they are either in for the money or actually know their stuff...

I actually spoke to one of my mates who is a manager in a busy coffee shop saying how work requirement, flexible working hours and weekends seem to eliminate all of the stay at home parents. And he finds this really unfair! I'm glad working force also thinks that too. 
But for now I just stay annoyed sleep-deprived mama. We all have been rather poorly this past week and think that might be a reason why the little man wakes up when it is still night... 
However did you hear about Flex Appeal? It's this wonderful flash mob - campaign to urge the employers to be more flexible with 9-5 Monday to Friday! They did the cutest dance demonstration I guess in London few weeks back. And in this post Mother Pukka explains pro of this system. 
I suppose I can do the agency work. This will give me flexibility with work I need but nursery aren't as flexible either. I love our nursery but they have only limited spaces  and once I commit to days selected it they aren't to flexible to change and agency aren't a steady work. So what is this? Catch 22 all over again? I really hope I would find something soon... Ish. 

Tuesday, 20 September 2016

Bad moms

"Let's be bad moms" says Mila Kunis in this gem of the film in answer to the pressure of being this picture perfect mother, that bakes, cleans, helps with homework, works and also lost all her baby weight and always looks amazing... (and all this in one sentence!!)

I would like to applaud, actually make like a one woman standing ovation, to all the people who made this film.
This film feels real, about every day mumming struggles. I have to confess that good few times I wanted to clap or shout "You go girl!" during the film.

Basically it is about mothers, PTA, schools, children and mama gang. With mainly female cast too. There are only few men in this film, and they do not have a center stage. One particular actor is there just to look very very good. And boy he is does this so well.... 

This film made me laugh so hard that I have cried and almost peed my self. 
There is however some criticism about how Mila Kunis' heroine doesn't look tired. Well we are not allowed. Damn all this pressure on mums to be perfect... But yay, lets just be bad moms! 

Oh and do watch the end credits. These are just sooo sweet! 

I miss having a mama gang. So Cardiff mama's if you are reading... Get in touch! 

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

Size vs hot mama bod!

Thinking oh it overall I have enjoyed being pregnant. Also I had an easy pregnancy and once I let go of that feeling that I have lost control over my body I was awesome!
My body is amazing. However at the moment I find shopping for clothes and shoes an absolute nightmare. I have no idea what size I am. With shoes it is easy no real undressing involved. Just pop the shoe off and try try try. 

But clothes... A lot of my pre Egg clothes don't fit which is, I have accepted, OK, I went throw major thing with producing a massive 9.4lb baby... So I am actually in need of new clothes. I started to look for stuff I can go to interview in, checked the clothes I had, I still have few things but I needed trousers and maybe a dress... Oh dear god! I know I am short that always been a struggle but finding trousers that fit around the waist and don't bobble up in front is actually almost impossible. And the high street shops are no help. Either I don't like he material, looking at you primark with strange polyester trousers that look sad, or size confusion, yes H&M UK you got your European size relatively right but it is wrong when it comes to UK size. Like size 34 is not size 8 you're numbties it's a 6! But then also I couldn't fit into jeans with 30inch waist when I am usually 28 or not 26 on a good day. 

(all pretty for the wedding few months ago) 

And please don't tell me about the apps that help you with sizing since every shop is different. But why is that?! Shopping should be fun! Infuriating actually. I don't have much time to spend in the shop since the offspring is either being looked after someone or really rather impatient I don't have time to check the silly app. Then it won't help since I don't actually know what size I am. 
And shopping used to make me happy ... It's just stress now...  
Usually I would pop to the shop grab something I like, normally a top... But over the summer they were all cropped. I don't like having my belly out... or just having that sexy midriff showing. Damn, why! Not all of us want a unicorn tee with belly button hanging out. 

Talking about H&M, have you seen that size shaming photo? 

despite all that how hot is this girl! Curves and balls! Awesome girl! 

But I love H&M I will not stop shopping there. I also love love their kids stuff. And I got some cute stuff lately from them... 

I just need to accept that I might be size 12. And maybe sometimes 14. I am dreading what size I will be in topshop. But never mind as long as I look good I don't care what size I am.
It is like buying a bra, as Bravissimo ladies told me you should always try things on. 
Must remember that... Size like age is just a number as long as you feel good and amazing unicorn that you are this number doesn't matter! 

Tuesday, 13 September 2016

Food circus

Street food circus. Silly name for a fun foodie faire. 
We have been last year when it was behind Radisson in Cardiff. This year they have moved to nicer surroundings of Sophia Gardens. And this time me and my girl Viera went in the evening. Me out on Friday night?! What?! I thought I'd never see the day! 
It was nice to be out in the evening! 
They had a fab selection of awesome makers and cooks! 

We had reclette thing. Melted wheel of cheese scraped over potatoes with some serano ham, shallots, crunchy pickles.and I don't like pickles! 
Then we head over to brûlée bar! These were little pots of creamy haven, you chose from set toppings or make your own. Too much choice really! 
And we washed it down with prosecco cocktail from the tiny prosecco van. I tell you what we all need one of these in our gardens!
It was good fun but mainly it was nice to do this with a friend and to catch up!

Sunday, 4 September 2016

Face mask form H&M

I love H&M despite their issues with sizing and such. Well stay tuned for that post, it's coming. 
In case you don't know anything and lived somewhere isolate line under the rock they have launched the beauty and makeup range. 
And it is lovely, good quality and affordable! I got couple of things form their range including this face mask 

How cool is the minimal design! And it's a one pot kind of a deal. So if you are doing it every so often it's perfect size... I sometimes forget that I need to buyout is or clean, in this case, a deep clean... 
Skin is our biggest organ and we do not take much care if it. At the moment I am all about cleansing and moisturising. Mama must stay pretty and young!

Well and so she does!!
It was a super nice texture and extra nice smell. They actually add perfume to it so I was distracted by it, like a natural sent of product. It felt smooth when I was putting it on but it felt incompatible drying out. But this might be that I have oily skin and I was using it while having a bath. 
After washing the mask off my face felt clean and moisturized. It felt clean. And lovely. So if I was to get it again I would use in the morning for a fresh feel all day. 
In conclusion, didn't like the sent and thought it was rather off putting but the result, quality and consistency are top notch! 
Also speaking of H&M beauty I also got the lip melt. 

Colour pigment is awesome. Not my usual safe ones more of a dark shade. Mama fancied a bit of the change I guess. It is a bit dry when you put it on and take a bit of time to make it all pretty on the lips but lips feel soft and lovely after. Once again top marks! 

Tuesday, 30 August 2016


Do you love Great British Bake Off? Or Baking Show, I believe that is the alternative US version name for his amazing show. Well I am a sucker for any sort of amazing home crafter and makers show, like sewing bee or a pottery throw down. Yea that's a thing here in UK. I don't know how much of it is a real thing but it is super fun! So... 
Nadiya was a winner of bake off last year. And she owned it! 

After awesome winner speech like this she is back in BBC in a new show. To be perfectly honest I knew she was up to something since she has been on a lot of magazine covers. However it makes you wonder if press needed some awesome hijab wearing woman.... Oh nevermind all the marketing and all the representation issue aside, she is one super inspiring young lady. 

Chronicles of Nadiya was right after new season of bake off last week. Clever BBC  scheduling here! And don't think it's just another cooking show. Nadiya talked about her family, Bangladesh, being a Muslim in UK, being a mother and many other things. Not only she is very talented she is also very brave and opinionated lady and a feminist. Even if she is just touching this territory and is being a truly scare of this. Love her love her lover. 
I actually almost cried when she was telling about the arrange marriages and the pictures of her cousin's wedding were so heartbreaking... 
I cannot encourage you enough to watch it! Seek it out even if it's not available in your country, damn BBC for only showing thins within the UK... 
I hate to say that you some of us seeing a lady in hijab we think she is oppressed. One of my old coworkers converted to Islam and she said hay it was a choice to wear or not to wear, to adopt modesty clothing or not, or in simpler words it is up to you how you want to celebrate your beauty! And once again wear what you want... You are an amazing lady and it is your choice what to wear and what to be!! 
Nadiya I love you and I cannot wait to new the episode tomorrow!! Yay!