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A friend of mine got in touch yesterday. We haven’t seen each other for years, I think it might be about 8 years if not more, he said our colleague when we all used to work in the bar has passed away and it was almost 2 years ago. He just found out. I had no idea either...  This truly is shocking she was so young. And what I found more shocking that I had no idea this had happened.  This news made me think about how life is busy and complicated. And short. How I don’t actually talk to people I used to live with, or people I used to work with... how all his social media meant to keep us connected but it is clearly not doing its job. But don’t worry I won’t forget to say happy birthday on your birthday, my Facebook will remind me.  I suppose it is narual that not all our relationship meant to last... and how we know about what celebrity died and not a girl you used to work with for over a year. What does this say about our culture and society?! (It’s a rhetorical, and food for thought) 

Clearing out

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When my mum was here I finally cleared out my wardrobe... this was difficult.  After having Edgar my body obviously changes. And due to laziness and me not working I cannot justify gym nor I have time for it. Gosh sometimes I really miss it. I wouldn’t say I am super gym active or super sporty but I do miss that muscle ache you get after working out... same as I wouldn’t say I am super unfit. I walk a lot! But my body is a bit cuddlier than it used to be before I had Edgar. And it’s ok it’s natural even...  But this change also means that I am still holding on to clothes that are too small or uncomfortable to wear. I also have a big hoard of vintage dresses that either too small or in need of some TLC.  So I had to let go and actually admit that I am unlikely to lose weight or/and I won’t wear that skirt or that dress ever! And it is super hard. Some clothes were loving worn and had some events attached to them like my wedding dress. Or sourced when I lived in London or awesome vintage

Bullet Journal

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Have you seen these crazy people with their free time and super organised and super pretty bullet journals?  Well the instagram and YouTube is full of these lovelies..  this is from Boho Berry Look how pretty this is! The details and colour are truly divine  And look how neat this one is!  I suppose I like the idea of making your own specially for you dairy.  So what I have noticed I had 2 or 3 dairy and list books on the go, one for everyday, another for to do lists, and one for random notes and notes... then I thought well why not!  I don’t have the world prettiest bullet journal... actually mine is quiet ugly and plain looking. I am a bit lazy and don’t have time really to make it super pretty. And to be honest I don’t see value in that. Just little stickers and a little doodle here and there... and just one colour pen. Well almost! But it’s easy to use. And actually nice to sit down and make the grid and lists that I have. Some weeks are more

So tired!

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School run is the only reason that I know what day it is. But still I am not quiet sure. Lately Edgar hasn’t been sleeping long. I got excited yesterday when he god up at 5.50am... yes! It is his bad.  But then child pretty much hated good night sleep all his life. And it is the favoured blog topic, a moaning posts... ( here , here , here ... and pretty much many more...  ) This Tuesday after a very emotional Monday I felt ever so tired. Tuesdays are my days, Egg is in preschool and then nursery collect him, so I just need to drop him off and collect him in he evening.  This Tuesday I was planning to go shopping for myself. But I just felt so deflated and a bit overtired.... but I did a bit more complicated hair, wore red (a happy colour)...  And in the afternoon I had a singing and dancing session for about 10 minutes and somehow my day got better.  I suppose as long as you have something active to do and occupy the brain you don’t think that you have been waking up be

Job hunt

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I have actually finished my course. But it didn’t work out as well as I expected. I guess I should have gone with my gut feeling and take just administration course instead of medical. Which I have actually failed. Well not all of if but some modules therefore I can’t get a certification I set out to get a year ago. This wasn’t made clear to me when they sold me this course.  To make matters worse it is sitting there on my credit card still begin slowly repaid.  I also stil waiting for my admin diploma. These guys proving to be a bit unprofessional...  However I got new skills now and that’s what matters.  So this mama set of to look for a job. And I find it super hard.  I cannot work any working hours like I used to.  I have a child care to think about and I dream about this magical life and work balance. Mainly I just want to be working as great as mumming is I need to have conversation with adults!  And so it began. I mainly get no reply or rejections but I have been on couple inter

Sleep...

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August and September were great! Egg slept well at night, not through but he would wake up at 6.45am or somewhere between that and 7.30am and once he even woke up at 8.45am.  But then suddenly he became a hater or restful nights and lover of his super tired mama... we were up at 5am or 5.30 no later than that. Evil child!  It was horrible horrible times!  So I took to internet...  There were two opinions among English writing parents, either go to bed earlier or go to bed later...  The lady in our local shop who has 3 sons said that you just need to ignore them, they would put themselves back to sleep.  Being a true believer in the child that goes to bed late wake up early, I have decided to ignore the cooing toddler by the gate of his room. That didn’t last. He is very persistent. So I thought well let’s try to go to bed about 7.30pm instead of 7pm. And it worked! Doesn’t work all the time but it works. I don’t feel as exhausted all the time as I used to.  Now I am trying to break the