Very Small Feet

I am a lazy person. If I do not feel like going running I won't. I sort of wish I was more well committed to running! But it is also comes with the fact that I don't actually have time, not really. Hubby works silly hours to keep me at home before Egg goes to school. When little one is in nursery I either catch up on house work or I am studying. Sometimes I am so busy that I do not get to sit down till like 9pm and then ideally I need to be in bed around 10pm because the kid will be awake early ... so I give myself a permission to be lazy... also I am taking a year off races. I blogged about this before but it is something I still struggle with. And not only that... I feel a bit guilty that I don't run.  In a way I guess I gave myself a permission to be lazy.  But and here is a bit but... I guess. I like me better when I was a bit leaner. Not necessarily thinner but leaner more tonned.  (Big cheeks and very big hair) I haven't been light thin since I was 15 and I am Ok ...

I consider my self a gym bunny. When we lived in Birmingham if I was not at work I was in the gym or cinema next door. Oh that was wonderful. Bad day at work? Gym time, angry speed running to loud music until I wasn't thinking angry thoughts.... Or gym and then a film as a reward.  It was nice. My body was in a good shape. When we had a hard week at work I think was at my thinnest and fittest... But with a big man in our life's life became more fun and I do not have time for my self. There is always something else to do. So I have tried going back to the gym. That didn't work.  I do see all these super fit mamas on intagram and I am jealous of their awesome achievements on body front and that they have time to them selves. Amazing work ladies! Actually one of them said that babies will grow and leave but your body will stay with you... got me thinking! You might want to suggest that I work out when big man is asleep. Well he was up about 3 times a night and wor...