Very Small Feet

It's a nice feeling actually... you feel like the centre of the earth sometimes, but sometime I just want to say that "just chill I'm not dying I'm just pregnant".... But it is nice to have a party thrown in the honour of your roundness and be this centre of everything.  So my amazing in laws, and Martin (brother in law) especially,  organised me a baby shower! I was feeling a bit down and such, waddling around just waiting for stuff to happen and being by my self most of the time, so it was a welcome change to go back to Wales, see everyone and have people fuss over me... Feel really grateful and loved! Thank you all so much!! And big thank you for amazing gifts! This baby will look amazing straight after birth... and much needed perks for me:)  We have sampled the baby foods... as per some strange baby shower tradition... Well this made me want to make my own. Don't know how long I will last with that but the idea is in my head. ...

My hubby is amazing, he is like super supportive even if he s calling me things... I know he means it with love. I am freaking out....  I really not in control of my body, this upsets me great deal. My joints clicking, my hips are hurting... and many other unpleasant things pregnancy related, sore and bigger boobies are just the start. I do not think I will be able to run the half marathon this year... Sad face.  I'm super worried about the birth it self..... (do not think I need to elaborate on this) My emotions are running high and crazy.... doesn't help that I cannot unwind and slightly overworked. Well I guess I need to find the way how to, that doesn't involve me running fast on tread mill listening to shouty and loud music... Shopping is not that same either. It's just stress, all I see if the things I cannot wear, so no cardio a la Carrie Bradshaw.  Stephen said to me that he feels more maternal than I am... Well I did not expect to be pregn...