Very Small Feet

I really embraced second hand fashion last year. Especially since my body went thought this incredible change of growing the baby so it seems somehow wasteful to get new clothes just for a short period of time...  How cute is this Zara dress I picked up from my favourite charity shop for like £3.50 Draped nicely over the bump and will be great when I will stop wearing just comfies!  I kept most of my maternity clothes from when I was pregnant with Edgar, like that strippy dress. Which is actually not maternity but just fits nicely over the bump. And some of my not bump clothes just stretched, like that blue dress or embroidered shirt. I did buy a preloved bundle of maternity jeans and shorted them and wore and wore them. I still do as my regular stuff is till up in the attic. So all and all I did buy some pants, well bump was very big and my regular undies were so uncomfortable... also 2 pairs of breastfeeding pjs, and a coat. The coat I am still wearing as it “grows” with the...

So as you might have figured it out we had our newest Edwards in January. And life had been well busy...  His arrival was very different to his big brother, so easy and calm and collected. We went to the hospital dead on 39 weeks. With all the covid restrictions we were very lucky to have Steve with us from pre op, during and recovery. Over 7 hours! And we were home  the next evening.  Scheduled Caesarian section is very different from all that terrible traumatic delivery we had with E. All the doctors, midwives and other amazing staff came in and introduced themselves and talked me through the procedure... also we had a student midwife with us from my regular appointments, oh we like Kate!  I walked to the theatre, met more people... they moved Steve around the bed so he can see me and talk to me. The anaesthetist held my hand while spinal was put in, it was the most painful thing out of all the procedure.  Baby was out very quickly and all I could think I want...

I guess today being 1st of January it seems appropriate to reflect on the year that passed.  It was definitely unique, with its extra stress and worries, thank you history for repeating yourself with pandemic but not influenza but much scarier covid. Well thinking of it I m sure the 1920 pandemic was just as scary.  We finally spend time together. And a lot of time and sometimes it was hard. But I actually really enjoyed that.  And turns out walking is nice gentle exercise for mind and the legs and does wonders for wee man!  I rediscovered my love for sewing and that I definitely hurry the process and well not very attentive to details. Actually looking forward to expand on that and making more things for the house and for myself, and well more face coverings.  I also finally started to read again and not just children books!! I made a little list.  I reassessed my drinking habit and well my general well being. Turns out pregnancy impacts very differently o...

December usually busy and well festive... we both work in hospitality and catering and there are also school things... but this year things are different.  For starters there is pandemic. Means we haven’t really seen anyone. Family since August, some friends since before the 1st lockdown in March ....  I am also very pregnant. I do attract small moons and am super uncomfortable in maternity leggings, that’s says something right!  And then there is school drama. All the lockdown rules and regulations are different in UK. Here is Wales there was a 17 days firebreak lockdown.... and well it didn’t work. Or people are irresponsible or maybe both. So the schools been told to shut from 16 December, happy birthday to me... then last week we got message that some of teachers/teaching assistants got symptoms and we have stay home. Think all of us were hoping for 2 more days of school at least... well they tested positive so children have to isolate until weekend. So double happy b...

So I have never actually wrote about this ... not saying exactly what it is and how is it... and well it’s not easy.  About 2 years ago on a nice summer day we have been told, that my partner suspected and what I was in denial about that our little one has autism.  Everyone experiencing autism differently, and it is different for everyone. Spectrum is wide. Some have extra gifts like music or math, some cannot stand certain things, like wearing certain fabrics or maybe loud noises.... some like Egg don’t really speak.  There is no cure and it’s is not a disease...  There is a lot of learning and understanding to do. We are all getting better at this. Some days are great others not so much.  But he is a loving happy boy. He is now trying to talk and learns new things everyday...  My hubby is excellent at finding all these incredible audiobooks, can’t quiet read about it, on the subject. The best discovery so far was  The Reason I Jump by Naoki Higashida...

This year has been crazy ... well it’s still crazy and still very uncertain and corona filled (not the beer).  So the general consensus is do what brings you joy and make you happy.... and folks have Christmas trees and decoration out already! Hey I am all up for do what makes you happy.... but I am in two minds.  It’s November! Not even half way in November....  Maybe I am feeling superior because I cannot get to my decorations in the attic by my self?  I get the “influencer” folk need to create content... but some how it feels so early still! Oh and I am totally watching all the Festive DIYs on YouTube and what not. But I am not in the spirit yet. Maybe because I am pregnant and still nesting in anticipation... maybe because we don’t see friends and family and pressure is not on. Which is a nice feeling actually!  So yeah don’t feel pressured into a “prefect” festive look already. Also there is no such thing as perfect. Don’t forget (note to self too) things o...

I think I already spoke a lot about the culture and perception around catering and hospitality in the UK. It is seen as unskilled and cheap yet we all want excellent service and food. Well chef’s job is not only physical and physiologically hard and Ratatouille Colette’s rant describes it very well. At the same time waiter (a good waiter) it is also super hard, talk to customers, give suggestion if needed, make sure everyone is happy with everything including you manager that you have “Up sell” enough ... but yet it is still it’s unskilled.  My little rant is over I am actually here to tell you why my chef husband hates one of our son’s favourite cartoon.  With arrivals of Disney + we have watched a lot of Ratatouille a lot. Like a lot. Also the short cartoon is also brilliant. I actually have very fond memories of watching it on the plane back to Russia when British Airways still flew there, when I had choice of what white wine I wanted the Australian or French? Oh I do miss ...