Very Small Feet

This last bank holiday treated us with some glorious sun and clear sky. And sleeping if you are a toddler is super hard. It's just warm. Also I really didn't want to do anything so naturally I packed up the swimming stuff we had in the house, bikini for me and trunks for the child (our regular more suitable for pool adventure stuff was at my in laws) along with water wings we heard out for about 40 mins hike to the pool.  So I naively thought we will be there right after opening time so it should be crowed and surly people would rather go the beach or something. Well we were greeted by this...     I wanted to run back home and hide. But I thought I shall not be defeated by this and to be fair the queue moved really quickly. Must be some technical difficulty, or something along these lines.  And pool was fun. Although kid tired to climb all over jacuzzi bit and were whistled at, and he is really strong willed yet totally lost without me. I put him on top the sild...

Edgar is almost 3!  I cannot believe this, it like it was just yesterday I was waddling around with a massive bump thinking of what to name my little egg... And he doesn't talk.... When Egg was about 18 months old he used to sing Twinkle Twinkle and so a little star with his hands. He used to call us mama and dada and call all small animals bunny. Well my mother's cats were bunnies.  And now he doesn't say much. Only bird language. Lots of different noises. Sometimes he would say a word or even two and then won't say them again...  I am pretty convinced that he is just stubborn. We know voice and words are there. He just can manipulate us to get his own way....  But then we also have all these medical professionals around us. We saw speech and language therapist (SLT), paediatrician and regular visits to our health visitor (HV)... I really didn't find SLT helpful she produced a terrible report based on her observations. Well if she was observing my child for 2 hours...

My almost 3 year old has a terrible milk habit. When i hear other parents saying how they had a bad night their kid woke up once I want to cry and tell them they don't know how lucky they are! Truly!  For last three years I can count on one hand how many times Egg slept throw the night. It was 3 times. Three glorous nights...  So every time he would grouch in the night we would give him a bottle with milk. Yes we are bad. And he still has bottles. Yes yes I know. So after having a nice chat with Health Visitor last week, she said he needs a uninterrupted sleep, and so do we. It is linked to their development and you know... it's a sleep!!  Basically we had to suck it up and not give him milk. And guess what two difficult nights and now he pretty much sleeps throw until he wakes up.  (Here is my tiny terror with his new love Welsh cake) Win!  But last few days he was up at 4am and 4.30am and refused to go back to sleep... and he gets naked... with all the wet con...

Remember that post about the self care ... well I got busy again and again didn't look after my self. Well I guess when your kid is unwell too you kind of don't think about yourself. So we all got this horrid virus. Not sure from where and how long I had it for. I know a lot of this going around and this virus is nasty.  After almost a week of little man refusing to eat and not sleeping well for two days... well he is finally better and he sleeps and he eats! Yay! But still abbot snotty. Well it's nice to send you toddler to nursery but he does come back with most fun bugs. They all have snotty faces at this moment.    I am not sure if husband is better but I tell you if you have this stuff sleeping helps. But I understand if you have toddlers it is virtually impossible.  Oh and I finally went to see the doctor ... it's a virus. Nothing really can help me just do what I have been doing and chill. And try not to cough too much I guess...  This is a reason you hav...

So I thought Egg had chicken pox about 6 months ago. It turned out to be just a teething rush.  I had chicken pox when I was 21 and it was horrible. And from what I can gather it is much better to have it when you are little... And so Edgar got this disease for his birthday. Damn! He can't tell what's up and how he feels coz he doesn't talk yet... Oh well.  I am very sleep deprived at the moment. He is walking up a lot itchy all over and super grouchy. I can't take him out since he is still contagious, there goes our nursery settling, he is going mad in the house.  And the spots are everywhere, poor guy.  He is still mainly happy little boy but restless... And annoyed and very irritable... So is his mama. At this very moment I'm listening to him fighting the nap time while being in need of one too. Go to nap!!! Go to nap now!  Basically being sick sucks! But watching your child being sick and there isn't much yo...

We have been busy and doing a lot of fun stuff...  Like just going to the pool. Not usual swimming lesson but just swimming. And Egg loved it. Kicking the water all the time and jumping off the side. Not independently thanks goodness but almost there.... I think he jumps 3 times without holding my hands. We also had a really good time in Wagamama and little man eat most of his food, also Daddy's chilli squid and most of my noodles!  We also had a coffee date just few days ago... I really needed a latte and little man had a babycinno. Well he enjoyed sticking the spoon into it and swish it about. And we also had our very first cinema trip. Finding Dory was lovely. I had to go see it again because we had a wonder around and he had enough after about a half a film. Which is good I thought.  We came in early so he could see what the cinema was all about and the popcorn of course.  It is wonderful that there are these early sho...

So me and Edgar were pretty much just me and Edgar... And daddy on his days off. But mainly for almost two years it was just me and little man.  It was wonderful, fun, learning experience , super tiring, and all sort of other craziness that mumming comes with. But from the last month we committed to nursery and started to go there from 1st of August.  Our nursery offers settling sessions. So two out of four were great. He came in happy and went off playing straight away. They just can't feed him. But that will come. The last two sessions he had to be pulled off me by staff. Tears and screams. And my heart was breaking. My brain understands that it is just an act and it's won't be like this all the time... But my heart still breaking.  For the 1st time he was staying longer than two hours yesterday. And the tears! His little face was all red and wet from being so upset about me leaving him. But then after I have stopped feeling like the worst person ...

We love our boy just too much... And we don't want him to cry at night so we always picked him up and cuddle him. So he won't go to sleep by himself ever. We had a brief moment in time when he did fell asleep by himself but he was just a small baby then.  And he also migrated into our bed. I guess with the moving we did in his first year of life it might be very complicated to  get used to one bedroom.  It is nice to have your baby next to you sleeping and hugging but not all the time and not when this baby takes all the space and also like to kick and pull your hair... Enough was enough and besides he is a big boy (relatively) right now so we have decieded to finally move him into his own room and to try to sleep train....  We have been doing if for about a week now... Edgar will have a bath, we get ready for bed and read him a story. They he would go into his cot with a bottle and  we will leave the room... And few minutes later he will be sound asleep. It is ...

Get your minds out of the gutter!  Mumming..... Who knew it is hard to deal with super active toddler. Did you know that aged between 12-24 months or so they have tantrums!...  And it is normal...  It is very hard to deal with. The big man cannot quiet express himself ... So he screams and screams and some time throws stuff. More often when I pick him up to soothe hit flaps is arms around and I get slapped a lot... Or he bangs his head on the floor as a protest.  And this is normal. Who knew?!  Toddlers cannot quiet say or express what they hey want or need so tanties are happening. My Facebook mamas said that it will pass and I just need to relax and not to worry. That it is only a stage...  Basically motherhood is kicking my butt at the moment it's not fun...  We are also started using reusable nappies with hope that big man will realise when he needs to go and will be willing to sit in the potty.. But so ...

I simply cannot believe we are in Christmas mode already. The year just few by... And when I look at the little man sometimes I just do not understand where my tiny baby gone and who replaced him with this toddler?!  Look just how grown up he looks at this photo  I never felt like "oh I'm so sad my baby grows up so quickly" I am excited that he learns new things becoming a small individual with his own personal tastes. And then I blink and he looks so grow up!    I actually don't remember what it was like when he was just a little baby. I might have just blocked this out, who knows... Or maybe it is just a lack of sleep!  Have you seen these parenting motivation pic? Like if you are not crazy you are not doing it right? I am totally bananas now. So crazy that after no training what so ever (I maybe been out for a run 3 times since Cardiff 10K) I'm doing the Movember 10k this Sunday and then on Monday little man and I are travelling to snowy an...