Very Small Feet

I guess today being 1st of January it seems appropriate to reflect on the year that passed.  It was definitely unique, with its extra stress and worries, thank you history for repeating yourself with pandemic but not influenza but much scarier covid. Well thinking of it I m sure the 1920 pandemic was just as scary.  We finally spend time together. And a lot of time and sometimes it was hard. But I actually really enjoyed that.  And turns out walking is nice gentle exercise for mind and the legs and does wonders for wee man!  I rediscovered my love for sewing and that I definitely hurry the process and well not very attentive to details. Actually looking forward to expand on that and making more things for the house and for myself, and well more face coverings.  I also finally started to read again and not just children books!! I made a little list.  I reassessed my drinking habit and well my general well being. Turns out pregnancy impacts very differently o...

December usually busy and well festive... we both work in hospitality and catering and there are also school things... but this year things are different.  For starters there is pandemic. Means we haven’t really seen anyone. Family since August, some friends since before the 1st lockdown in March ....  I am also very pregnant. I do attract small moons and am super uncomfortable in maternity leggings, that’s says something right!  And then there is school drama. All the lockdown rules and regulations are different in UK. Here is Wales there was a 17 days firebreak lockdown.... and well it didn’t work. Or people are irresponsible or maybe both. So the schools been told to shut from 16 December, happy birthday to me... then last week we got message that some of teachers/teaching assistants got symptoms and we have stay home. Think all of us were hoping for 2 more days of school at least... well they tested positive so children have to isolate until weekend. So double happy b...

So I have never actually wrote about this ... not saying exactly what it is and how is it... and well it’s not easy.  About 2 years ago on a nice summer day we have been told, that my partner suspected and what I was in denial about that our little one has autism.  Everyone experiencing autism differently, and it is different for everyone. Spectrum is wide. Some have extra gifts like music or math, some cannot stand certain things, like wearing certain fabrics or maybe loud noises.... some like Egg don’t really speak.  There is no cure and it’s is not a disease...  There is a lot of learning and understanding to do. We are all getting better at this. Some days are great others not so much.  But he is a loving happy boy. He is now trying to talk and learns new things everyday...  My hubby is excellent at finding all these incredible audiobooks, can’t quiet read about it, on the subject. The best discovery so far was  The Reason I Jump by Naoki Higashida...

This year has been crazy ... well it’s still crazy and still very uncertain and corona filled (not the beer).  So the general consensus is do what brings you joy and make you happy.... and folks have Christmas trees and decoration out already! Hey I am all up for do what makes you happy.... but I am in two minds.  It’s November! Not even half way in November....  Maybe I am feeling superior because I cannot get to my decorations in the attic by my self?  I get the “influencer” folk need to create content... but some how it feels so early still! Oh and I am totally watching all the Festive DIYs on YouTube and what not. But I am not in the spirit yet. Maybe because I am pregnant and still nesting in anticipation... maybe because we don’t see friends and family and pressure is not on. Which is a nice feeling actually!  So yeah don’t feel pressured into a “prefect” festive look already. Also there is no such thing as perfect. Don’t forget (note to self too) things o...

I think I already spoke a lot about the culture and perception around catering and hospitality in the UK. It is seen as unskilled and cheap yet we all want excellent service and food. Well chef’s job is not only physical and physiologically hard and Ratatouille Colette’s rant describes it very well. At the same time waiter (a good waiter) it is also super hard, talk to customers, give suggestion if needed, make sure everyone is happy with everything including you manager that you have “Up sell” enough ... but yet it is still it’s unskilled.  My little rant is over I am actually here to tell you why my chef husband hates one of our son’s favourite cartoon.  With arrivals of Disney + we have watched a lot of Ratatouille a lot. Like a lot. Also the short cartoon is also brilliant. I actually have very fond memories of watching it on the plane back to Russia when British Airways still flew there, when I had choice of what white wine I wanted the Australian or French? Oh I do miss ...

Here is a photo of my cat with her tongue out.  Wales is in lockdown 2.0 and well I feel all the feelings. We are lucky that hubby is on furlough, that schools will reopen after half term for us, so little one will not miss it! But it still is scary. We don’t know if it will last as long as 2 weeks or will it be more.  I guess it’s ok to feel uncertain and scared sometimes. At least in spring summer lockdown it was nice weather and lots of vitamin D that does affect the mood.  Also I am in 3rd trimester of pregnancy and it’s also not clear. If hubby can come. When will he be able to come with me. Will I have to be alone? Or who would watch the big boy?  And all this silliness with only essential items in supermarkets. I get that it’s fairer I guess but what about people who don’t have access to internet to order a book or new duvet?  Oh you get it. It’s strange and scary but we are going to be ok right? So let’s just be nice to each other, wash hands, stay 2 met...

With pandemic and lockdown looking I have managed to quit my actual work just like a month before the spring/summer lockdown. I just couldn’t anymore. I am not “captain close”, I wasn’ appreciated, especially after we managed to work the entire family so we can both cover the festive season. End of the day it was not worth it... I made new friends and that was nice!  I had 3 interviews and 2 trial shifts when I got one no and no reply after... because next week lockdown came in effect in Wales. But it’s still a bad form not to talk to your potential employees. And the job I didn’t get the only thing was the issue, that I needed to leave to pick up the child from after school club like twice a week early... shameful really. Oh but never mind.  I am pregnant now so it worked out I guess...  Here is me a month ago in preloved outfit. Hawaiian vintage dress form local vintage shop and DKNY jacket form second hand shop in russia.  The little one is a full time job. His ex...